After hypnotherapy

 Life wasm't that great,

waking up in the morning crying and having nightmares of losing the one you love,
its devastating , its desasterous
the emptiness and void feeling crawling all around your heart,
the thoughts of killing oneself persist , till  you find life actually has its worth.

Going to a therapist awakes me,
its give me life , it give me hope and encouragement
feeling at ease at things that are gone,
the sign of meditation and yoga introduced by different individual,
its a sign  the " big boss" is settle up my healing path ,
a path  of a greater hapiness

So i was given a asignment to list out things that i felt uncomfortable or sad

1. heading to the same place where i spend my time with you , with love and affection, tasting out different food, hug and kisses in the cinema , the warmth that i always miss.
2. Listening to the playback of different songs that we shared together, the songs that reminds me the wonderful feeling we had
3. I miss the companionship we had, where you were guiding me, which now is a challenge , its a good one to prepare my journey to grow up.
4. I do miss everything with you, and its pain me to say i really miss you alot, checking you in whataspp and fb message.

THe therapy has given me hope, the hope and wantingness to help you out, to lead you being happy again, as a friend or an ex boyfriend, i just wish you can open up to me and let things go, never say sorry no more, as its the past , but rather letting things go and be happy.

its is true , life is short, each day passing by gives me new perspective that we should cherrish ourself, i know and i always pray for your success in your career and life.

sign off missing you ,

U-Wen

Day 3 - post breakup

emotional roller coaster
still weeping while treating clients,
 the feeling of losing someone dearest is painful,
sometimes i wish i am more empathy towards the situation,
to be firmer with you staying back again,

my heart misses the things you say , the touch that i always feel , the emotions of happiness and warmth you created around me.
i want all these back into me, i really miss it all

My functional brain tells me impossibility, of all the thoughts and tears you created the message indicated how pressure you are , how intense and difficulty in handling yourself,
i just want to tell you love conquers all, that's what we have been throughout the easy and hard times,
i  just wish you open up even more to me, as your partner and not keeping to yourself,
i just wish we could run away together somewhere far, somewhere we will be acknowledge by others the true love we have.

I am working on it , a path of recovery , as time heal's up the wounds and tear we shed, but your message has engraved in my heart forever,

down the road of years, we may have sparks  and perhaps we shall be together again. BUBI, i am ready for it all the time, just let me know when you are ready for us.